Life Of A Hustler

feeling sick

Fri, 18 Mar 2005 04:37:35 GMT

I'm feeling pretty sick still but I will be at school tommorow...damn flu...payday though..feeling a bit better lol =D...my business affairs are going pretty well considering I had to kinda slow down also due to my flu...on a totally seperate note, I'd like to thank Niv for indirectly helping me realize how important it is to admit when you are great at something(freely) and if you think about it...the worst thing that could happen is that you could get shown up...but if that happens, then you would have a new goal of practicing whatever you do until you counter-show-up the person that made you look bad....and then you are better than you were before...theoretically if everyone bragged about the one thing they were best at, then no one would brag at all really since everyone could get shown up at someone elses best ability...kind of like the idea of everyone owning a handgun, then no one would get shot...because everyone would fear getting shot back (just an example, maybe not the best)...

Tue, 08 Mar 2005 07:33:44 GMT

"Those who are destined to achieve greatness know it long before they are ever successful." - A personal line of mine, thought I might share it...

Just had my B-Day, umm...fuckin birthdays

Thu, 10 Feb 2005 05:30:59 GMT

had a dream about this once, wanted to see it done...

P.S. Life fucking sucks..if BB's could pierce skull...well...

So much going on, good, bad, great, awful,

Sat, 05 Feb 2005 18:30:50 GMT

im getting my car in 4 hours, I havent seen Taya in almost a month, its my birthday in 3 days, I am starting to work on my AA degree next week so i only have 4 periods a day starting monday until i graduate next year, i cant decide wether i wanna stay at elco after april or just leave for college, tom and I are working on our company, my nephew is going to be born in four months, i got my biceps to 14 inches pure muscle, i might meet my dad very very soon for the first time in my life, Tayas probably grounded for like the next half year from seeing me anymore than once every month, Ive gotten bored of so many things i used to find entertaining..etc..i added this to make my entry seem a little longer, tell me what you think

I'll take another drink,
And wonder what you think.
When your sad and alone,
Even true love is disaster prone.
Something once so sure,
Has turned into complete a blur.
If I leave you I could end my pain,
But no other girl is quite the same.
It feels like I've always been with you,
Damn, I just don't know what to do..

Sat, 04 Dec 2004 08:03:40 GMT


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Just installed my 75 pound punching bag last night, been beating the shit out of it for a long time and my hands are all bleeding and cracking though =/...Im grounded for tonight so nothing special going on...looking for a place that sells good keypad entry safes, need to get on in my room...definately...so what is everyone else up to

*P.S. there was a small trantula in my room earlier and I dont know where it came from, but I video taped it before I killed it, so if anybody wants to see..I might put the footage on LJ...

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Tue, 23 Nov 2004 06:33:59 GMT

We fight everynight and I don't know why,
I think about it and can't help but cry,
I've never been here with you before,
Fights that leave me talking to a door,
I thought it could never come to this,
You promised me so, in every kiss,
And I believed every one of your lies,
Until now I never did truly realize,
How foolish I was about a woman's true desire,
To burn a mans soul like kindling in fire,
And torture so naturally without even trying,
Make me feel like crawling up and dying,
But even after all the things you do,
I can't help but want you...-Ryder

=/

Fri, 19 Nov 2004 00:07:57 GMT

Torn apart bit by bit,
Dragged back to where I fit,
A jigsaw puzzle in the making,
A strong life all worth breaking,
For a righteous purpose never forsaken,
Only doubted until ultimately taken,
Just a matter of where and when,
I become the shadows once again.

On another note I have a question, its kinda wierd, and hard to explain, but just tell me what you think....If something is the right thing to do, is it still worth doing if nobody ever knew you were doing it?

Thu, 11 Nov 2004 04:50:19 GMT

been busy so i havent updated much...took these the other day and i kinda liked them...think i might make it my user pic

1 year anniversary =)

Sun, 26 Sep 2004 23:47:22 GMT

took those pics before we went for dinner at the cheesecake factory....loved it...hope everyone else had fun too over the weekend...

Fun cruise in a pimp ass car that is fun to drive =)

Thu, 16 Sep 2004 05:57:35 GMT

Its not an Integra, but I guess it will have to do =P

yeah, not everyday you get to drive a fully restored classic showcar Roles Royce, though i should take a few pics, i really like it...might be getting one later on, that will be cool =) I know i look high in the pick when i was getting out of the car from driving, i am very tired and part drunk from rosh sha shana drinking =)
p.s the pics came out blury cause the car was running and the engine is powerful v-10 so it shakes the car a lot

Wed, 25 Aug 2004 08:20:59 GMT

Wow, summers been cool...I got three classes out of the way, got an A in my pierce class..gotten stronger from working out a lot and taking alot of pills...opened up a bank account so i can manage my money better cause I gotta few thousands and counting thanks to work...going to start working on my car in september or october I think...and I even got a maid at my house so i dont have any petty annoying chores to do anymores...and I figured out what I am going to get Taya for our 1 year anniversary(can't say though cause she will read this, but I will post it like on the day or something)...Oh yeah..life is good...
(I even found out how to channel my anger towards my parents waterboy style so i can workout more and get more adrenaline) =)

fucking acid dream creature

Tue, 10 Aug 2004 01:18:55 GMT

Tom and I went crazy in class so I made this while the teacher was talking away to us and i put it over my face and stared at her to piss her off...good times...its totally random but I found it fucking hilaroius...

Sat, 07 Aug 2004 08:02:44 GMT

Just posting to say sorry to everybody I havent really spoken too or seen yet over summer...just been really busy and havent had much time for relaxing...

Well.......

Thu, 05 Aug 2004 03:49:49 GMT

OH SHIT....I Just fixed my comp...It hasnt been working for the last month or so....Well...I have been pretty busy...got my first A in a university class for summer...got 2 jobs...making 10$ an hour and working a shitload of overtime for 15$ an hour and turning into a work-a-holic with 12 hour shifts...I have been working out like crazy and I am a hell of alot stronger cause I am eating all healthy and stuff too(and been off all drugs and alcohol for quite awhile now)...might be starting to work on my Integ in September...Brother might just move back here soon...Taya is moving away though =(...And there are a bunch of people I wanna see before summer is over...

comment ok...ok

Thu, 10 Jun 2004 02:52:19 GMT

Post a memory of me in the comments. It can be anything you want. Then post this to your journal and see what people remember of you!

I'll actually update later when I have time to write all the stuff happening lately =)

Tue, 01 Jun 2004 05:57:50 GMT

Wow...[Taya coming over] + [she is allowed to spend the night at my house, in my room and its pretty much not part of the house(this time she wasnt sneaked in there =D)] + [K Y jelly that heats up on contact] + [a holiday to sleep in on] + [home to ourselves in the morning] + [hot kinky shower sex to wake us up] + [getting out of the shower cold so doing it again to warm up] = Me having the best fucking 3 day weekend of my life this far...and I have had some fun 3 day weekends =D

Fri, 21 May 2004 04:06:17 GMT

Today and yesterday the best way I could show how I felt some of the times would be...

=O

Fri, 14 May 2004 04:08:11 GMT

Ok...imma do something people probably arent used to..I'm going to write something about my girlfriend and its going to be about her and only her and I am going to write it right now on this update page from scratch..here goes...

A few times I thought it bad,
To be in something so serious can be sad,
Looking at other amazing girls you want,
And when you're taken, they tend to flaunt,
But I know the happiness outweighs it by alot,
So I look at what the last 8 months have brought.

Well sure she can be wierd,
Texas chainsaw massacre she never feard,
Laughed through the movie,
But when everyone looked over at me,
I felt proud to be seen next to her,
Where others might find it hard to endure.

She loves cheesburgers when its time to dine,
So for 5.99 I know shes always mine, =P
She tares her food apart as if she was a bear,
But wieghing in at 80 lbs, whos she going to scare?

She's ticklish as hell,
Its really hard to tell,
But lick her on the neck,
And shes laughing like heck,

The sex is great I really must say,
She leaves me begging for more..everyday,
Amazing positions and all..its true,
She can bend like that..who would've knew,

She has long brown hair,
With perfection everywhere,
Her eyes of the nicest haze,
Leaving me in a dream phase,

Shes humble straight through,
She'll never ask a thing from you,
So I try to do all I can,
To show her I can be the man,
She relies on for the rest of time,
As long as she is..always mine...-Ryder

wrote it earlier...tell me what you think please...if you dont i will be deeply hurt forever

Wed, 12 May 2004 23:49:04 GMT

Her smile brightens my day,
I'm left with nothing to say,
I wish the words would come out,
But my mind is filled with doubt,
What would she do or say?
Does she even want me anyway?

She is so mysterious in her acts,
It seems nothing she lacks,
Stunningly gorgeous and all great things,
I'd say she was an angel, but I see no wings,

I've seen her for awhile now,
Yet I really never knew how,
To tell her how I felt inside,
So our newborn friendship died,

Passing her in the hallway,
Meeting eyes and looking away,
Always the same, just another day...-Ryder

Crazy and fun

Sun, 09 May 2004 23:05:19 GMT

O_O...PCP is one hell of a drug...lol

Quote of the ~~day~~ night.."Damn Neil..you look like you're going to puke.....pass that shit."

funny

Sat, 01 May 2004 22:19:21 GMT

Well...Tom and I look like shit but we thought we would put these on here cause they looked funny as shit...and we werent acting lol...and I saw that pic of Taya and I and I liked it so I put that on there too ^_^...

Tue, 27 Apr 2004 05:02:16 GMT

Well I kinda messed them up a lil cause I resized them and I'm not all that great at it, so they will be fixed then updated later on...but for now...here are some of the pics from sunday..btw...I never realized we have the same eye color sometimes =O...trippy

Tell me what you think...

P.S....Thank you BRAAAAANDIIIIIII =D <33333333333

on another note..this is the Beretta I got that I was talking about =)

Sat, 24 Apr 2004 19:09:23 GMT

Since there is no time to go to any parties this weekend except for my nephews bar mitzvah (sp?) which doesnt count as a party really..but its sunday night so monday I'm going to be half asleep at school and i have to make up a couple of tests..btw anyone know if the genetics test was hard?.....on another note...Tayas spending the night tonight =D and I finally got a dvd copy of "Don't be a menace to South Central while drinking gin & juice in the hood" so she can finally see it....funny shit...doesnt get much better then having a sexual fantasy crossed off your list while watching an extremely funny comedy...unless you can't tell if shes laughing cause of the movie or cause "its so cute" =O

Sat, 24 Apr 2004 05:28:34 GMT

Wow...first time i've been home before midnight or the a.m's i think in like a month of friday nights...I might just be able to go to my class at pierce tommorrow for like the first time in a month xD...nothing new really...getting my handgun tommorrow so I can finally get back to target practice, Tom you better buy yours soon and we can see who is the better shot..and if Stefan is a bitch we can set him straight...j/k..unless we are to wasted and/or high to realize the safety's not on..lol..like that party where you brought in the rifle to scare Stefan and you thought the safety was on and you almost shot Stefan, Vince, Caitlyn, Me etc lol..good times.....well talk/see to everyone later _,,,_(\0_0/)_,,,_

Thu, 22 Apr 2004 09:13:56 GMT

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OK its been another 2 hours...I still can't sleep...There are so many things that are bugging me...and writing it on a computer doesnt seem to be any different than just keeping it bottled up inside...I think the reason I'm starting to get this is cause I was so used to talking to my brother about this stuff and he lived just as crazy a life as i am so he always knew how to help and listen...but I havent really been able to talk to him for a year now and i dont really talk to many other people if any about bad things happening in my life..I need some advice...